Sarindipity

While I was looking the other way…

Seven August 28, 2009

Filed under: Me, Me, Me — sarindipity @ 9:25 pm

7 Things I Want To Do Before I Die:

1. Drive down the west coast, from Vancouver to California in a convertible.
2. Continue to learn Italian and French and be fluent in both.
3. Go back to Europe and not be on a backpackers budget.
4. Do my Sommeliers course.
5. Open a restaurant.
6. Have babies and not screw up raising them.
7. Live in a swanky apartment in downtown Vancouver or Toronto (or both).

7 Things I Cannot Do:

1. Not cry at a funeral.
2. Play a sport well.
3. Hide my emotions.
4. Say no to a glass of wine.
5. Buy expensive jeans.
6. Follow my head instead of my heart.
7. Refuse a good shoe sale.


7 Things That Attract Me to the Opposite Sex:

1. Intelligence
2. Sense of Humor
3. Passion
4. Ambition
5. Protectiveness
6. Humbleness
7. Eyes


7 Things I Say Most Often:

1. I need a glass of wine.
2. I love you.
3. I hate traffic.
4. I have so much work to do.
5. I’m not going to get enough sleep tonight.
6. You look good today.
7. Wanna play hookie?

7 Celebrity Crushes:

1. Jack Johnson – I want him to make me banana pancakes.
2. Owen Wilson – anyone who can make me laugh like that is pure gold.
3. Audrey Hepburn – total and utter adoration.
4. Natalie Portman – girl crush.
5. Ray LaMontagne – that beard, that voice.
6. George Clooney – the most wanted and unattainable man.
7. Robert Pattinson – I have fallen in love with this vampire.

7 People I Want To Do This:

1. irreverentmommy
2. krameymartin
3. puddingandthepostfabprincess
4. whoorl
5. nothingbutbonfires

6.  slynnro

7. alimartell

Your turn!

 

Under Pressure August 7, 2009

Filed under: Oxygen — sarindipity @ 11:51 pm

I’ll be honest: I’ve wanted to start a blog for a long time. I follow a couple blogs and enjoy the updates of things and people that I have become interested in. I follow a blog about interior design, one about cooking, and a couple lifestyle blogs about people and their day to day life. The biggest thing about sharing is getting feedback. What a great idea, to be able to network about things that you’re interested with more than the people that you interact with daily.

Creativity is oxygen for me. Ever since I was a little girl, I have been writing in journals (quel horreur to read them now!), sketching, learning and writing music. I always challenge myself to learn more and do more. I love New Years because I am someone who excitedly makes and follows my resolutions, such as taking guitar lessons, re-learn French, take a photography course…

Sadly, I find that the older I get, the more my life gets filled with other things that take precedence over my hobbies. Namely: work, husband, family, friends, house. My life seems to be maxed in every way possible – long day at work followed by picking up groceries for dinner, preparing aforementioned dinner, eating and catching up with husband, visiting family/friends or working on a house project or cleaning, ten minutes of reading followed by bedtime. Wake up, lather, rinse, repeat.

Where can I fit in these other things? I have to force myself to read every night – not because I don’t enjoy reading – to the contrary, I love it. I have to force myself because otherwise, my whole day will be filled with things that I do for others… all day. I need at least ten minutes a day for myself.

Lately, I have seriously questioned the balance of which I assume my day-to-day life. Years ago, I lived in a small town in Italy. I was a nanny for a family and in my spare time, I traveled, I learned Italian, learned how to cook and enjoyed life. I took naps almost every single day!

I thought that upon moving back, I would maintain a serious amount of that lifestyle, but it is difficult when all hours of the day are accounted for. My disdain for those that are consumed by all work and no play mocks me as I have cocooned myself in the very lifestyle that I detest.

My point is: I need to step back and let some things that I love back into my life. I’ve started guitar lessons, a huge commitment for me beyond the weekly lesson is the half hour a day devoted to practicing. I take time experimenting in the kitchen. I have grown a love for the art of cooking and find enjoyment in it. I grow my own produce and herbs and feel slightly motherly being needed to tend to my garden daily. I’m taking the camera out more trying to learn something new every time. I put aside washing floors for yet another day week month so I can hang out with my family and friends.

But writing – this is something that I have not been able to get back into. At night, exhausted, I struggle to write more than a few lines in my journal. I know that my writing is forced, to make sure I don’t go another month without writing anything. It has become a chore which I fail time and time again.

Blogging – this seems like something I can keep up with. I’m at the computer for most hours of my day anyhow, to take a couple breaks to write down my thoughts and ideas seems so easy.

In theory.

Again, I’m failing myself. I can’t keep up with the pressures that inundate me. But for now, I will keep trying.

 

Grace in Small Things 4 August 5, 2009

Filed under: C is for Camping,Grace in Small Things — sarindipity @ 12:55 am
  1. Boating out to the middle of a calm lake and enjoying the solitude.
  2. Freckles on the nose due to lots of sun on the face.
  3. A trailer that keeps us warm at night, even with the rain pelting against it and a coolness that chills through the bones.
  4. Hot espresso first thing in the morning.
  5. Three blissful days off of work, alone in the mountains with husband, more than one bottle of red wine, and a selection of good books.
 

Grace in Small Things 3 July 24, 2009

Filed under: Grace in Small Things — sarindipity @ 7:49 pm

1. Seeing Iron & Wine at Folk Fest; falling more in love with the music than before.

2. Silk wrap dresses, that make me feel like a Princess while staying cool at the same time.

3. Carpooling with my husband to work… morning drive, coffee in hand, watching the world wake up together.

4. Chocolate & Hazelnut gelato… like Nutella, but better.

5. Rasberry bushes that are starting to produce fruit.  Sweet, sweet, fruit.

Happy Friday!  Tonight I’m preparing an Italian Vegetarian Feast for six friends in honour of one moving away to Toronto next month.  Eat, drink, be truly merry!

 

Torn

Filed under: Deep Thoughts — sarindipity @ 5:16 am

There are the days where I can’t yet relate, but can’t wait to.  To be a mommy.  The smooshy kisses, cute faces, innocence and laughter, chubby toes…  My love is endless and I want to pass it on to a little being.  I want to love someone with all my heart, someone that has my button nose and Gavin’s deep blue eyes.  My easy going nature and Gavin’s determination.  Those are the days I see a woman rubbing her belly, oblivious to anything other than the swoosh over her stomach as the baby moves inside.  I want to be her, I think.  Those are the days I feel ready.  And I wonder, sometimes, if the baby gods are sending me signs?  When you start to look for them, you see them everywhere.  Strollers, advertisements, buddah belly’s, and missed periods.  If it happened, it would be ok.  It would be more than ok.  But it hasn’t, not yet…

Then there are the days where I come home from work, tired after a long day.  I go and nap, because I can.  I drink a glass or two of wine for with dinner, because I can.  I watch re-runs of Sex & the City, because I can.  And I go to bed, early or late, it doesn’t matter, because I can.

And I wonder, knowing that when the babies come, how much ‘can’ will be left in my left?  How prepared am I to be without my freedom, my passions, my enjoyment of the day-to-day life?  Am I ready to give up ME yet?

No doubt about it, when I am ready, I will.  I will miss the wine, miss the free-time, miss the cooking-all-afternoon just because I can… but not yet.

 

Grace in Small Things 2 July 21, 2009

Filed under: Grace in Small Things — sarindipity @ 12:51 am

1. Going to the lake on a hot summer day.

2. Drinking iced coffee while people watching.

3. Flowers from husband waiting for me when I got home from spending a week away.

4. Finding the perfect oversized yellow purse (aka life-bag).

5. A slideshow that reminds me of who I am and where I came from.

 

Grace in Small Things 1 July 10, 2009

Filed under: Grace in Small Things — sarindipity @ 8:35 pm

1. Rain all week, so I don’t have to water my garden once.

2. Wine out of a box.

3. Calgary Stampede – BBQ’s, Cowboys, Country Music, etc.

4. New sheets.

5. Paulo Coehlo and the beautiful books he writes.

 

 
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